Your personal well-being is 100% more important than everyone else's opinions which actually equal 0%... unless YOU believe otherwise (and beliefs change). Your joy comes from within and can reflect outwardly, but doesn't 'have to'. Life is what you make it. "Success" is a fantasy and delusion imposed upon you by the external world around you (money is just another religion). If you don't have a strong foundation (your own, not someone else's, and not from old dead people's written words who probably wouldn't actually 'like you' (or worse) anyway), everything else you build from your foundation will fall apart due the 'chaos' of the nature of the universe around you (everyone else), which you cannot control. You truly are 'Number one' and 'the center of the universe', so treat yourself like you deserve and TAKE CARE of yourself. Do not offer 'help' to others without your absolutely SOLID foundation and core principles in place first and your health fully intact. You are only causing harm through ignorance towards others in the failure to love and care for yourself first. Clear your head from all external 'teachings' and set yourself free from mental slavery so you can fully bloom as the natural being you truly are. Then, and only then, you can learn from the world around you and adapt better to this chaos you call 'life' without falling back on old dead bad habits (like most others in society) that never got you anywhere truly joyous previously. These lost souls WILL HATE YOU and try to ATTACK YOU for being free! Expect 'loneliness' and 'isolation' as a result of your liberty and self-sovereignty... and then you will see the ocean sized pit of deluded souls on the horizon as you look back at them still playing the game of attachment to bad old dead habits as you turn again and continue your marvelous journey of personal freedom and liberty towards your own truth as a free soul in the cosmos.

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